Back to fighting.

So, I guess that was the wake up call I needed.  It's good to know one of my allies are alive. I'm not sure with most others anymore. Malkin's the only one I thought I had left. Then I saw that Xi posted. And somehow that's helped me. It's not so bad, is it? I have a lot to talk to Malkin about. I want to meet with Brennon's family... I want to talk to them and see what's going on. I want to see if they can forgive me for their actions. I'm going to make something of the ashes and nothing that my home has become. The sanctuary will be built again. I swear it. I'm going to fight. I promised Brennon and Branwen that I would. So I'm going to.

Now to get up the gall to talk to Malkin. I hope he'll see things my way and agree with me. After that we're going to get our stuff from Portland and move back this way. I'll be working on blue prints, and looking for a job. And... making a deal with the devil, so to say. Hopefully things play in my favor. Time will tell I guess. Wish us luck.

Happy Birthday

Happy Belated Birthday, Taben.

Taben's birthday would have been this weekend. He'd have been 32.

We had a small 'party' in his honor. He was gone in the head when we lost him, didn't make me love him any less.

I don't know what to do.

Malkin wants to head back home to Portland and the apartment. I just... don't know. I really just... don't know. I feel so lost....

Someone help me...

Stalker

Wind is blowing

Knocking on my window

He looks in.

I feel Him.

His lack of eyes on me

I close my eyes.

Hide under the covers

Pray to the Gods.

He can't

Possibly

See me

My time's not up.

I'm not ready

He can't

Not yet

I have days

Months

Years

It is not

My time

Not yet.

As long as I do not

acknowledge

Him

He will not

Claim me.

I'm not His to claim

Not yet.

Not ever.